A time to breathe

I was out in the forest last evening, just me and my camera. And in that moment I suddenly felt this deep urge to write another blogpost. I’ve been thinking about it many times since I wrote my previous post in June. But the busy summer left little space for that spark inside of me to show up.
It’s been a lot of focus outwards, on doing things and getting done with the project of moving into my new art studio. And besides that, summers usually feels very noisy to me and the older I get the more I begin to love the autumn.

Like last night. I just went out to take some photos of some jewelry but ended up just standing completely still on a huge field of dead fireweed, as the sky turned pink and the low degrees made smoke coming from my breath.

It was so silent. All I could hear was a raven far away.
And that was the first moment in many months where I felt completely still inside.
I took a deep breath in. And a deep breath out.

And that’s when the inspiration came to write this blogpost. And I am so happy for that.
I have for so long wanted to write and say thank you to all of you who wrote comments on my previous post. I was so shocked to see that so many still went into my blog now and then to check for a new post, even though I hadn’t updated in years. I’m so happy that you are here!

As I said when I wrote my “first” post in June, I felt like I was writing out in a black void. An empty space, that all humans had left a long, long time ago. And that felt ok, because the urge to write just came from the joy of writing and for expressing myself in another way, not necessarily for someone else to read it.
I like writing so much more than talking.
So it was such a huge bonus to see so many still coming in here. In this little void.

As I sit here and write, it is Monday evening and there is a fire burning in the stove. Nanook is laying on the floor snoring, and a candle on the table next to my laptop is the only source of light apart from the screen. This is exactly what I need right now.
Quiet autumn evenings.

Even though I have a busy time ahead of me now, with a lot of work and many different projects manifesting at the same time, I have promised myself to slow down and make sure to have many more evenings like this. And to go for many more evening adventures in the forest, like yesterday.
Because I really feel how that opens up something. You gotta slow down and quiet your mind for something new to arise within.

And I feel like autumns and winters are made for that. For us to slow down and let the inner world take the lead and inspire us and show us the way.

I just sit here and smile as I upload my photos and mix them with my words. I really missed that feeling of composing a blogpost. It’s very satisfying in a way I cannot put into words.
And to see an image, without any sound. No spoken words and no background music.
Even though I love to create feelings using many different elements, I also really miss letting the photos speak for themselves. It’s such a beauty in that too.

Ok wow, this post became longer than I thought. I just wanted to say thank you and share som photos from last night. And to let you know that I will probably keep posting in here. How often I don’t know.
But the darker times of the year inspires me to write. So I think I will see you soon again! 🙂

Sending lots of love to wherever in the world you are ♥

Long time no see

I have felt a strange longing for writing lately. I’ve actually been thinking about writing more blogposts again for the past year.
But since I haven’t done a post in what feels like an eternity it feels so hard to write a first one. I don’t really know how to start or what to say.
But I know that as fast as I sit down and start writing something and then click on post, that “wall” I’ve built up around making a first blogpost will be teared down. It’s always the hardest before we take that first step.

I feel like I’m writing out in the black void. As if it’s 4 billion years since my last blogpost and earth is no longer existing and nobody hears me haha. That’s how strange it feels to write a blogpost again. This part of the internet feels like something ancient now.
Who spends time reading blogposts now days when everything is suppose to go so fast and make a lot of noise to gain our attention and to keep us scrolling and looking for the next shot of dopamine?
In a time when everything moves so fast, and social media changes in ways that makes me feel a bit lost sometimes, it just feels so nice to sit here and write, in this empty space.

A blogpost doesn’t make any noise.
It’s not trying to be seen or read. It’s just there for those who want to take part of.
Like the flowers in a field.
You can stop and smell them if you want or just walk past them.
I like that.

So this will be my first blogpost in a long time and I have no idea if my inspiration to write and make blogposts will stay but I will just leave it like this now. Without any pressure. I do hope that I will continue with making blogposts now, since I really feel like I need it in some strange way.

So hello there, whoever will be reading this. And welcome back to my blog!
I decided to share some photos of a roadtrip I just did the past week. After a half year of renovations on my new art studio I really needed to get away and charge up my batteries a little bit, and going to the mountains in the north without any time schedule our plans, that is among the things that brings me most joy in the entire world! In that freedom I feel like myself.

So maybe this roadtrip to the north is what actually inspired me to finally make this first blogpost! I think so.


In a lot of ways I feel like I’m just about to start a new chapter in my life. Not that a lot will change in my life, just that the “feeling” around things will change to the better. Like an upgrade.
Or maybe it’s because I will soon move into my new art studio that for some reason feel like one of the best things that ever happened in my life.
Something I been dreaming about ever since I moved to the woods and started my creative path in life. That is definitely a huge upgrade in my life and I have a feeling that it will bring so many new good things into life.

Anyway, I think I will just post this now before I change my mind haha!
Looking forward to the next time that I will sit down with a cup of tea and just let my hands write whatever my heart wants to express.
That is such a beautiful feeling.

Big hugs to all of you out there! ♥

The light, the book and the ice

Some minutes of light

We are in the middle of December now, and for many weeks we haven’t even seen a glimpse of the sun. It’s been hidden under a thick layer of clouds. And december is a very dark time of the year even if its a clear sky, since we only can see the sun for about an hour above the treetops before it goes back down. 
But in some way I really love this time. I love the extremes. The very dark December, and the very light June. The midnight sun and the polar night. 
It’s so special and magical in some way. 

But today, we FINALLY saw the light from the sun again. It was still behind clouds but it was so beautiful to just see the light and the beautiful colors on the sky. That really made my day! I flew up with my drone so that I could take a photo of it. 

It’s only in the contrasts where we really can appreciate life. We need the darkness to see the light. We need the cold to feel the warmth. We need to put ourself in discomfort to appreciate the comfort. 
And every year this time I get the same deep feelings of gratitude for the light and the sun. It’s ok to live in darkness for a long time each year just to get this feeling when standing in the window and suddenly feel a little ray of sunlight hitting your face. It’s like being flushed with a wave of love. It’s like I wanna cry every time.

Our cat Nayeli must have also felt very happy about the little sunlight we got today, since she sat in the window looking out for a long time while the sun was visible. 

My beautiful home. I took this photo of the village today. And I always love to see Grundtjärn from far away. It really gives you perspective of how far away we live from towns, cities and streetslights. All you can see is forest everywhere. 

I wanted to share with you about a book I got back in October, that I recently started reading. It means a lot to me, since it’s a friend of mine who wrote it. His name is Pelle Lundström, and I am sure my old, fellow blogreaders that’s been reading my first blog has seen him in some earlier posts. 

I first got to know him on a Nordic conference in Finland back in 2015. He held a speech together with his friend and colleague Lena, which really moved me and inspired me a lot. They worked in a “youth center” for teenagers called Kåken and did so much amazing work for young people. They were so passionate about what they did! Later the same year I was invited to their center “Kåken” to have a speech myself, and it was so much fun to see them again!

Lena, me and Pelle after the speech at Kåken, in May 2015.

Next time I saw Pelle was when he came visiting my art exhibition in 2016. And after that we been seeing each other once a year as he spontaneously comes visiting me and Johan sometime in the summer every year, which we always appreciate so much! (We didn’t meet this crazy year though, but we will have to meet extra long next time 🙂 )

 

Pelle is one of the most inspiring people I know. Ever since the first time I met him I’ve been fascinated by the stories he have told from his life. I have always wondered why there isn’t a film made about him. I love when he comes visiting us and we never want him to leave since its SO interesting to just sit and talk with him, about anything!

A few years ago he started writing a book about his life and all the experiences he has gone through and all the lessons he have learned along the way. I was SO happy about that! And now in October, after many years of work and writing, I got this book sent to me. It’s called “Från bränt barn till eldsjäl”, which is hard to find a good translation for in English, but maybe something like ” From a burnt child to a fire soul”.
I actually cried a little tear as I hold it in my hands. 
I just felt so thankful that he actually did it! He has so much to share and his experiences can be of so much help and inspiration to others.

I know he put his heart and soul into this, and I almost felt as if I held a piece of his life in my hands. I was so happy! 
And now I recently started reading it (I wanted to wait until I really had more time and peace in my soul to take it in) and I have come a little less then half way into the book. It brings up a lot of feelings reading what he has gone through already as a young child and it’s interesting to see how even the smallest things can be a big change in a child’s life. From his perspective now it’s so much easier to see where things went wrong and why it lead into a path where he ended up in prison as a young adult.

It made me realize the importance that the adults have in young peoples life’s. How things like not being trusted or seen or respected can actually destroy someones life for good. It leads into a path that later on leads into a worse path and so it goes on…

Even though I have not read the whole book yet, I know that this book is about change.
That everyone can change and that everyone deserves to get a chance to change. It’s never to late.

Pelle really did that. He started off really hard with criminality and violence but totally changed the path of his life and are now the most shining soul I know…a real “fire soul” that inspires so many people. 
I am so, so thankful for this. 

Pelles book “Från bränt barn till Eldsjäl”

The book is in Swedish and I know most of you who read this does not speak Swedish, but for those who do and are interested in reading his book you can find it HERE.
And if you ever wanted to learn Swedish but just waited for a good reason, now this is the reason 😉

I wanted Nanook to pose with the book, since Pelle is Nanook’s favorite human on this earth. He always gets over the moon excited when Pelle comes. 

Pelle and Nanook on our kitchen floor, summar 2019 🙂 


I was going to take a photo of the text that Pelle wrote to me in the book but Nanook put his paw on the page and my heart melted! So I just had to add this photo as well since it looked so cute 🙂 

I was sooo happy to read this. I will try to translate it for you:
Best Jonna. You and Stjärnfödd/Starborn has been with me as inspiration through every page of my book

Stjärnfödd/Starborn is one of my photo artprints that he owns and that has been with him during these years that he’s been writing his book. 

Thank you with all my heart Pelle! I can’t wait to continue reading your book now! ♥

Find his book here

It was a while ago since my last blogpost. It’s really been a crazy half year with so much work in many different ways, so I still feel like I try to catch up with everything. I still haven’t found that rythm I am searching for. But both me and Johan have been working really hard these months so I think thats why it feels like we are always a few steps behind with everything else.
But that is ok and I am not stressing about it. And I know for sure that now as Christmas comes things will slow down. 

We are in the darkest time of the year now and I feel like things are suppose to go slow now. Its a good time for sitting in front of the fire. Drinking tea. Reading a book. Mediate. Make good food. All those cozy things that I’ve been longing for. 
So now during Christmas that will be our number one focus. 

I really hope you aswell, wherever you are, will take some time to yourself and calm down. I know December can be such a crazy month. Its good to remind ourselves to slow down and breath. 

I will end this superlong blogpost now with my 3 last videos that I had not yet shared here on the blog! Maybe you have already seen them, but I will share them here anyway. My last video was actually published yesterday, and it’s a 3 hour long ice song that I recorded from the “singing ice” now in November. I really recommend listening to these sounds if you want to relax. I really like to have the ice sounds in the background while writing or reading or just relaxing. 

I want to wish you all a beautiful week! Take care and I see you soon!
Much love to you all! ♥

A time of transition

Hi everyone!

I just wanted to share my new video with you, in case you haven’t seen it yet.
This video really summarize what’s been going on in October. It has been a month of so much work and so many new things. It’s been feeling a little chaotic now and then but also very exciting.
Like an explosion. And it takes some times before all the pieces falls into order. 

My week in the mountains was a perfect way of calming down and just taking a deep breath and settle down.
It was so needed. I wish everyone had their own cabin in the mountains to escape to now and then.

I hope you like the video! And I wish you wonderful weekend!
Much loive to you al l♥️

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